Infatuation and catching myself

I caught myself in time...or did I?
I have such mixed feelings about Jacob wannabe... on one hand I feel so attracted and drawn to him, but on the other hand, I distrust and dislike so many of his ways...
I'm attracted to him like a moth to a flame.
In my heart of hearts I know that whatever it is that I feel for him, it's not built to last...
It's like there's something to this whole ordeal, something I'm missing, the key behind the whole thing, the reason why I'm so damn infatuated on him and I can't seem to get over this... And to be honest it's driving me insane. (^_^)